Pausing the Radical Ticket Sale initiative
It’s time for me to take a step back from this initiative.
tl;dr There's a lack of clarity on how Kiez Burn makes decisions. It feels like some people think I'm trying to somehow harm Kiez Burn, and they're doing their best to obstruct me. I wish to feel supported.
Two weeks ago I went to a Kiez Burn workshop hosted by Remy and Waldo. They explained the consensual doocracy process and told us that anybody in the community could make any decision so long as they listened to the people who would be impacted by it. I was inspired. I decided to try a slightly new kind of ticket sale. I shared the idea with them and others at the workshop.
After this workshop, I believed that if I followed the process, and listened to feedback, I'd ultimately be free to make a decision on this topic. I understood that this was the commitment Kiez Burn e.V. was making to its community. I no longer believe that to be true.
In conversations with both Waldo and Alexxx, it seems clear that they are not fully committed to "let fail what the community does not carry". They also do not fully support that anybody can make any decision.
I feel disappointment. I'm sad that the commitments Kiez Burn e.V. made publicly and in writing are not being followed through on. I'm sad that it took me so much work and heartache to find this out.
At this point, it's time to recognise that I'm only continuing in this mission because I'm being stubborn. It's pretty clear that several members of the board are uncomfortable with this proposal, and do not want to see me make a decision to take it live.
It seems they wish for me to modify the proposal until it is within the realms of what they think is comfortable. It seems they to ultimately decide what kind of Kiez Burn we will have.
It's time for me to take a pause on this initiative. There is a board meeting on Tuesday, I've asked for clarification on the consensual doocracy process. I hope that the board will release a clear statement that they are 100% ready to stand behind the process, and are willing to see Kiez Burn 2020 fail completely if the community does not carry it. This is the vision that I signed up to support, and that I signed up to work under.
Until that happens, personally, I no longer have enough enthusiasm or energy to continue fighting this cause. CJ shared that this process is exhausting. I wish that had been made clear to me upfront. I feel exhaustion. I wished to feel excitement and that I was working inside a radically supportive community.
I believe in the Kiez Burn community, and I fully trust that we will, together, bring about exactly the Kiez Burn that we want. I do not see this level of trust from some members of the board.
I hope that at least clarity will arise from this process.
I'll take a few days break from Talk, and will check messages again after the board meeting on Tuesday.